“I’ve put this off for far too long…” – bilbo baggins
No, I’m not going on some great adventure so that I can “finish my book,” but I am regretful for not having been active in my blogging.
This semester is almost over, but it has caused me some distress in the levels of stress I have endured. The problem I see is, once more, determining how to spread out my time wisely so that I may be a successful student in Information Systems. I am still fighting with myself when I choose to relax – so I cannot truly call it relaxing to NOT do my work – and the result is that I am not operating at my best. I really am feeling “thin, sort of stretched, like butter scraped over too much bread.”
The one shining light in this semester is that I have finally found out why my body has been such a disaster – my testosterone is too high. No, I’m not turning into a man, but because of my testosterone levels, I haven’t been able to lose weight, have been breaking out excessively, and have grown hair in weird places – can we say, gross?
Not that any of you need to know all of that, but the final diagnosis was PCOS or Polycystic Ovary (Ovarian) Syndrome.
It’s not life threatening, but it finally explains why my hormones have been completely unpredictable, and why my body has been out of my control. With this diagnosis, I have begun taking a new birth control pill that should help balance my hormones, and I am using sulfur based skin-cleaning products – all prescribed by my doctors…yes, I now have multiple doctors.
So what does this mean? Nothing, in the grand scheme of the World. However, I believe that knowing what I’m fighting will allow me to focus on what I really need to do: (1) finish my MSIS, (2) gain IS experience and knowledge, and (3) remain positive and outgoing on a daily basis.
If I can’t help others, then why am I here?
Thoughts? Love to hear ’em.